Confessions

My sugar search hasn't brought back a lot of results. But that's pretty much my fault, I haven't been avidly seeking a SD, and when a guys shows interest, I look for the smallest mistake to stop talking to him, I think I'm just really scared for my safety lol. Last time I blogged I was talking about two pots..

Pot 1 (the one on the 'heavy side'). When we were talking about where we wanted to meet, since he knew what side of town I stay at, he mentioned this motel where we would be out of the way of "prying eyes." He is married so I understand his want for discretion.. but a cheap motel? Really? He said he had a SB from this area for 2 years but she just had to move away to *state* and so he is looking for a new one.. I hope he treated her better than cheap motels, but that's not for me. So he is out.

Pot 2 (the one I was excited about). I cancelled on him, lol. It wasn't a real SD/SB relationship..when I saw his profile it said that he was looking for a sexy assistant (yeah you know what that means) and I thought I was okay with that. He said the pay would be 1K a week and it would increase with the months.. it seems very generous, but I would be actually WORKING part time for around 4.5K a month. That's too close for what I want as my allowance..and that amount with a SD would consists of a lot less hours with him. So I realized I would be stressing myself out too much (I would have to drive more than an hour from school to keep doing this in September) for not enough monetary reward. And so he is out

Still talking to Mac, we almost talk on the phone every day, which actually I don't think it's a good sign. He seems more of a boyfriend than a SD (which I mentioned before) but he is sooo nice and he is fun to talk to. I don't know what to do with him!

There has been some other pots, but for some reason or other, they are a no. Though there is one I have been emailing for a week, from a city nearby.. and he seems really promising. He mentioned how he doesn't expect sex unless we feel a trust and comfort between us..which I thought was super sweet, compared to all the perverted old guys that I've encountered. I'll keep y'all updated about him (:

Thanks Eden and Sunshine sugar for answering my question!! I really want post an ad, but as I said in the beginning, I haven't been very good with my efforts lol. I'm not giving up, I'm taking a month 'break' in which I will talk to pots that reach me, but I will not make an extra effort to reach them. There are two reasons for this; 1) I am pushing 130 pounds.. I am not that tall, under 5'5'', and I want to put a lot of effort into losing a couple of pounds. And 2) I have some family coming over in a couple of weeks, and I don't want to be disappearing too much (since I still live at home *sigh*). I'll probably retake all of this at it's full potential once and back in school in September and in my own apartment. For now, we'll see what happens.

Mr. Businessman has been trying to get in touch with me a lot. I told him that I am actively seeking somebody that is willing to pay a monthly allowance (which if you read some previous post, he is not) and so that things wouldn't work out anymore. To my surprise! He told me that he was willing to do that, and he asked how much I wanted (which is 4K). He replied with this:

Make it 3K. I will book for next weekend. Friday and you go home on Sunday.. then you come back 2 weeks after that.

And then me...

Lol I'm not a car, I'm not bargaining my companionship.

But let's keep in touch (:

The amount he offered really not that bad, it's actually what I need to survive doubled (my apartment in my tiny university city is not that expensive, and neither are living expenses), but the reason I add the extra 1K is because I want to buy my own car, and that's where that money would go to. But I also said no because that's 6 days a month! To me a weekend should consist of 2 days, not 4.

He told me to think about it and to keep in touch with him. I chatted with him once after this, and I told him I was taking a break from all of this until September, and then maybe then we can make a deal. He is willing to wait.

In other news.. has anybody seen the previews for "The Client List" on lifetime? I was so excited about it when it came on because I thought it was a sugar story! But nope, it's about a prostitute. It still looks really interesting and I'll definitely be watching it.

Oh and one last question! How do I change the color of the font in the comments!? I have to highlight it to see what y'all write! lol. Please helppp

Anyway I have written too much! But it should make up for my lack of updates.

Much love! <3