First

So I'll make this my first official blog about everything that has been going through my mind because of who I've talked to and about what I've read.

I have a profile in a sd/sb website which is where I'm getting contacts from, and I'm surprised at how many people are actually looking for relationships! Or is it just they say that because they think we'll be easier to deal with if we believe that they want to marry us? Honestly, not to sound harsh, but I really don't care if the guy is married or has kids. This is a 'mutual beneficial relationship' or whatever in which if you keep me happy, I'll keep you happy also (:. No strings attached, so cut the bullshit about how you are looking for a soul mate in a website that girls sign up for some economical or connections benefit. Maybe it makes them believe that they will not be followed by something other than their charm..*ehem*

I've still met some men that do go straight to the point, that they want a strict sd/sb relationship, and lay down the rules. I think it's better that way.. after we have established some chemistry, of course.

Oh and what's with all these men talking about sex before we have even met? I think some people forget we're not 'escorts.' I'm making sure I tell them early on that I have to feel comfortable to start talking about those things, I mean I'm not naive.. I know it will eventually lead to it, but be a little discreet about it. When I tell them to step back they say that they don't want me to think they're just trying to get laid..that they could do that in their city without the help of this website, that it is not the only thing they are after..right.

Outside of who I've met..I've thought a lot about this world I am entering. Of course, nobody but whoever is reading this blog knows about my decision of starting this. I kind of wish I had a close friend that could be doing this with me, but I am so scared of what they'll think! So I'm just keeping it quiet for now, but I'm still pretty excited and terrified at the same time. I know we have to make sure these guys are not broken horny older men..and actually guys that want to spoil us, and I want to make sure I don't get mislead into one of the fake ones. I guess it all takes practice to start feeling more comfortable.

This is all I have now!

Please follow me, I want to meet other girls in my position and know how y'all are doing! (;

Much love!!